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Tarik Dozier
20 December 2000
one-sided

  So one day she said...

 
"It's just that I've noticed, Tarik, that you're not the same with me as you were with her. I used to watch the way you two interacted, and you obviously adored her, and I so wanted that adoration for myself. You don't treat me that way; you don't even look at me that way, and I just want to understand why."
And of course it made me think. It made me think hard about things I'd already been considering for quite some time; things I'd been discussing with another for weeks at that point.

Sadly, but not surprisingly, the only thing that I could come up with was that she was right. She was absolutely right. As much as I wanted her to be, she simply wasn't really all that special to me. When it was really supposed to matter, I couldn't give her any of the answers she wanted, so I chose not to tell her anything. I couldn't think of a single good reason to try to stop her from leaving. (Because pride alone doesn't even resemble a good reason.)

So I didn't.